Cycle #9 ~ 6 DPO







Actually got a little sleep last night!  Well from 1am to 4am...3 while hours lol.  So I'm determined to stay awake all day today, get some laundry and cleaning done.  My chart is looking decent.  It shows a clear thermal shift.  I am still not particularly hopeful just because I've been fooled so many times by a nice chart, high temps, tons of symptoms or hardly any.  It really could go either way.  I took a Wondfo on a whim just cuz I'm crazy and figured what the hell.  Negative (duh) and you can even see the white line where it would be pink if it were positive.  So I guess it's less than negative lol.  I need to order more Wondfo and FRER today.  I'm gonna really try not to be in a test frenzy this time.  It's just too stressful.

***PM Update***
  • Parmesan cheese smelled like puke today and made me feel sick - never has before.
  • Was very emotional today, had a good cry about all the things I'm missing with Jackson.
  • Got irritable and emotional over something my mother said.
  • Got emotional watching an old Unsolved Mysteries episode.
  • Went to bed around midnight

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