Cycle #9 ~ CD 3 *New Cycle*



Hooray.  😐 So yeah AF arrived on 12 dpo last cycle, first thing in the morning.  How kind of her.  😡

I had myself a good cry yesterday, was really emotional all day plus cramps and bleeding and depressed....just one of those really bad days where my grief is so heavy it's suffocating me.

But today is a new day and I feel pretty good today actually.  I got some cleaning done, laundry, dishes, showered, and made my lovely monthly blog graphic that you see above.  So will I get a trick (the witch) or a treat (bfp) this cycle???  It'll be right before Halloween.  Guess we shall see.

No Clomid this time - taking a break from it and doing Vitex this month.  You can't take them at the same time. I was taking Vitex a few cycles ago when I had the suspected chemical pregnancy, so I'm hopeful.   I am taking the Vitex everyday and I started on CD 1.  Taking it in the morning, 800mg.   I seem to have unexplained infertility.  I ovulate.  I know when I ovulate.  We have sex around ovulation.  Not much more I can do.  It's frustrating as hell.

I'm trying to lift my spirits and maybe decorate a bit for Halloween.  That grieving mother part of me doesn't want anything to do with it.  But the person I am, the mother I am to my teenagers, says go on and do it because I enjoy it.  So I just might.  Still deciding.

AF was brutal yesterday.  Crime scene brutal.  Ugh.  Today is better but still pretty crampy.  That's it.  Probably won't update again until I start taking OPK's which will be probably CD 12.

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