Cycle #8 ~ 9 DPO



I'm beginning to really lose hope now.  That spotting yesterday though....what the hell?  I know it can sometimes take 2-3 days for hcg to enter the urine but then again I read so many stories and look at soooo many charts if people getting a bfp the day of the spotting, day(s) before spotting, next day, etc.  Maybe it was just a fluke.  A very cruel one.



Temp is still up, so that's one good thing at least.  My test date is Sunday (12 dpo).





First morning urine tests.  Don't really see anything any different from the ghost lines I always seem to have.





I can see the ghost lines a little better now that the test has dried, but this is like an hour past the time limit.  My pee was pretty diluted because I'm still having frequent urination, so I can't go more than 2 hours without having to pee.  My urine has been pale yellow everytime.  If I could manage to get a decent hold, I would feel better about getting a BFN because at least then I would know that my urine was concentrated so more likely to pick something up if it was gonna be there.



LOL truth.

I have been taking ibuprofen for back pain, cramps and headache - which I know is a no-no during pregnancy, but I figured since I don't have a BFP yet it doesn't matter.  And then I read last night that before the embryo attaches to the uterus, it sends some kind of signal (enzyme? Hormone?) which irritates or inflames the uterus, which is necessary for it to implant successfully.  I never knew that, and I believe it's a recent discovery that's been made.  But it said this is why women who are TTC should never take ibuprofen especially during the 2WW because it's an anti-inflammatory medication, which could basically disrupt the necessary inflammation for the embryo at implantation.  Sooo now I'm like, well shit.  I used to have Tylenol from when I was pregnant with Jackson, but I think I ended up giving it to my mom.  So I don't have anything I can do for the pain I'm in, other than use my heating pad.  And I am NEVER taking ibuprofen or any other anti-inflammatory during the 2WW.

Symptoms

  • Frequent Urination - can't go more than 2 hours most of the time
  • Thirsty - my mouth has been so dry since I got up.  Even though I have been drinking a lot of water.
  • Right lower back pain - I cannot seem to get rid of it!!!  Argh!
  • Cramping - comes and goes, is mild and kinda twingy around my left ovary area.  
  • Fullness/Heaviness - I feel bloated and just have that heavy feeling in my lower abdomen.
  • Boobs - I checked out the girls in the mirror this morning and my left nipple looks a little darker than usual, and my boobs feel maybe a touch heavier?  Hard to say really, but there's no soreness.
  • Fatigue - I felt sooooo tired last night.  I mean unusually so.  I kept waking up to owe multiple times but aside from that I did manage to sleep from about 11pm to 3am (woke up at midnight and 1:30am).  So far this morning I'm not tired.
  • Nausea/Feeling Unwell - very mild and brief wave of nausea this morning.  I have a general feeling of being sick or coming down with something, but it's probably just AF.
*UPDATE*

So just went to pee and had one tiny spot of pink.  



So 8dpo @ 5am small smear of pale pink
Nothing at all and believe me I checked....until just now 9dpo @ 10:30am, tiny spot of pink.  

Conclusion....

Either this is definitely implantation spotting, OR my body really is an asshole and AF is coming early.  I've never had this happen though.  I've had pre-AF spotting before but once it starts it's usually pretty consistent for a few hours or maybe one day of spotting nearly everytime I wipe and then followed by AF.  If this is AF then I must have a LPD.  I'm so confused!?!?!

Symptoms Continued.....

  • Wet Feeling - all day long, kept checking for more spotting or AF but nope!
  • Temp - checked my temp during the day cuz I felt really warm and it was 99.22
  • Emotional - Had a cry earlier cuz I'm just frustrated and sad, thinking I'm out for sure
  • Headache - Had one earlier and one at night too.  Took Tylenol and used peppermint oil, took a while to go away
  • Nap - afternoon for like 3-4 hours
  • Cramps - in afternoon, mild and no backpain
  • Nausea again - in the evening after I ate which I didn't eat much cuz of nausea
  • Feet cold - for the past 3 nights my feet have been so cold that I have to put socks on.  Despite the fact that the rest of me is warm/hot and I'm hot natured so I rarely get cold.
  • 1:30am - Wondfo and FRER - really think I see something but can't call it BFP at all.  It's intriguing though.  Makes me excited for tomorrow (even though technically it's 10 dpo now cuz it's after midnight, to me it's still 9 dpo cuz I'm a night owl!
  • Decided what the hell, took a FRER Pregnancy Pro test which was BFN of course.  I don't know how sensitive they are, can't find any info!  But the Wondfo and FRER are both meant to be 25 miu and FRER has a reputation for picking up hcg as low as 6.3 in lab testing (not done by First Response, so it's not biased).

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