Cycle #8 ~ 1 DPO



Nothing to report really.  Still treating my upper uti with azo tablets.  I've been kind of emotional today and I'm not really sure why.  I have had to stop myself from crying a few times.  Just feeling sad today and missing my little angel.  Trying to remember what it felt like to have him kicking away in my belly.  I am just in a weird place I suppose.

No symptoms to report unless you count the emotional stuff.

*** PM Update ***

Other than the emotionalness, I have also noticed a definite increased thirst which has resulted in more frequent urination.  Keep in mind that I do have an upper uti and am taking azo tablets for that so it could be because of that.  I don't usually have vivid dreams but I do quite often in the 2ww and today I did have a weird dream/nightmare about getting an RV and having some kind of tire blowout or issue and I woke up in a bit of a panic and couldn't get back to sleep.  Last but definitely not least, I noticed AF-like cramps today a few times off and on.  They were bad enough for me to take some ibuprofen.  It wasn't constipation or uti pain - it felt identical to AF cramps.  So dunno what's up with that but it's interesting.  Also it's possible I am actually 2dpo.  With these cramps I'm sorta thinking I am 2dpo and not 1dpo.  One day doesn't make a difference I know, at least not in the big picture.  But anyway.......didn't expect anything to happen but I did have a very strong O as is evidenced by the pain it caused me.  So I'm hoping DH's swimmers made their way to my eggy and fertilized it!  Or two?!?!  That would be phenomenal honestly.  I would be terrified but so grateful.

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