(Backup) Cycle #7 ~ CD 10

  

Started a new sleeping medicine called Luna that I found on Amazon.  It's herbal...

 

I usually don't have much luck with this kind of thing and have tried others with no success.  And maybe it's placebo but I think it worked by golly!  I have chronic insomnia so I sleep crazy weird hours - usually because I'm at the point of exhaustion by the time I am able to sleep, which is usually during the day.  Lately I've been sleeping into the evening hours which sucks because that's when DH is home and we should be eating dinner, etc.  I've tried the tactic of staying up for a long time so that I can get to sleep that night at a normal time - and it doesn't work.  Day before yesterday I had woken up at almost 11pm after sleeping about 7 hours.  Stayed up until the next day at 1pm (yesterday) and slept from 1pm to 7:30pm so 6 1/2 hours.  I had ordered Luna that morning and it arrived that evening (love Amazon's same day delivery!).  I knew there was no chance of my being sleepy anytime soon so I didn't take the Luna until 4am and it says it takes 30 mins to an hour to work.  Around 5am I was nodding off, which is a pretty clear indication to me that my body is ready for sleep.  I was fighting it and I don't know why, but I finally attempted sleep around 6am and actually slept until 11am only waking up once around 9:30am and went right back to sleep.  So it's not perfect but it's a victory and it surprised me how sleepy it actually made me!  I'm planning to take it again around 11pm in hopes of going to sleep by 1am.  And gradually making it so that I can sleep from about 11pm to 7am, a full 8 hours.  So often I wake up after 2-4 hours.  Then end up napping.  Then can't get to sleep.  It's a vicious cycle.

In other news, pretty sure one of DD#2's gerbils is dying.  She has two of them and they've lived around 3 years, maybe just over.  So pretty long lives for gerbils.  He isn't opening his eyes, isn't moving much and is breathing very fast.  It's very sad.  ☹️

I derped this morning and didn't take my temp when I woke up.  I took it about an hour later.  Also forgot to pee in a cup for OPK (clearblue says use fmu, Wondfo I'm supposed to do in afternoon).  So I couldn't take the clearblue digital opk.  It's ok though, I'm not expecting to ovulate any earlier than CD 20 anyway.  I took 100mg of Clomid on CD 3-7 this month so I'm hoping for an earlier O, sometime before CD 18.

Emotionally it's been a mixed bag this week.  I felt like shit....then felt okay....then really low again.  Probably from the Clomid.  But also other things going on too like it being the end of the month.

We leave for our little trip to Baltimore, MD on the 11th which is exciting - I've never been north of Virginia on a road trip.  I flew to NYC once when I was in high school though.  But in my adult life, the most north I've been is Roanoke VA.  Also Richmond VA but I think Roanoke is a bit further north.  I've never been to D.C. Which I'm looking forward to even though it's just gonna be passing through.  Never been over the Chesapeake Bay bridge - almost did when we went to Richmond and were exploring.  But we didn't go across cuz it was expensive.  I think it was like $15? Anyway we decided it wasn't worth all that just to go across and come right back.  But this time we are going across....then up to Maryland and into Annapolis then on to Baltimore.  On the way home we will be driving through D.C. Though.

This afternoon's OPK....

 

Well cd 9 (am and pm) and then cd 10 (today around 2pm).

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