Cycle #6 ~ CD 10

 

I feel like this phase of my cycle is going by soooo slowly!  Had a pretty good day yesterday and today.  Had myself a little drink last night.  I never drink.  Well very rarely.  I had two of these....

 

It didn't do anything for me.  Not even a buzz lol.  It tasted good though.  DH and I also BD'd early this morning at like 5:30am.  Used an Instead cup which I left in for 5 hours.  I'm not close to O yet so it probably won't even matter unless I ovulate within the next 5 days.  But every little bit counts.  And besides we did it for the fun of it, not the baby making.  So much of our sex life has become all about the baby making sex, so it's nice to not feel that pressure once in a while.  When I took the cup out there was some brown tinged ewcm on the rim of it.

My OPK's...

 

Negative/Low

 

Comparison from CD 9, not much change if any.

  

Happy 4th!  I couldn't help but think of Jackson today and how his eyes would probably have lighted up at the fireworks.  Or maybe he would have cried because of the noise.  Just imagining...what might have been.  I feel like I dreamt of him today when I napped, but I also had a fleeting image of twin boys.  It's not the kind of dream you remember in detail, it's more of a dejavu feeling I guess.  Anyway so yeah today was pretty uneventful.  DD#2 was staying at a friend's house but she got sick so we picked her up.  I'm catching up on Catfish (MTV).  This show has become soooooo predictable and it's even more obvious now that a lot of it is a set-up, scripted, etc. And it's feeling like the majority of the people featured on the show are black and/or lesbians.  I have nothing against either.  I just wish there were more diversity because it starts to feel like a broken record when show after show is pretty much the same.  And I think I've seen *maybe* two episodes out of the five seasons I've watched, where the Catfish was the real person they claimed to be.  I miss the beginning when you genuinely didn't know or even suspect whether the person was genuine, and it was far more diverse.  Anyway, jumping off my soapbox.

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