Cycle #6 ~ 9 dpo

 

*le sigh*

So update on the spotting from last night.  I'm not so sure it was from implantation.  I think either it was just irritation down below or possibly I was picking up some blood from my backside (hemmoroid issues recently).  So I'm not discounting it but not calling it a sure thing either.  It's only something I can look back on and say maybe it was implant, if I do get a BFP.

The good news is, my temp is sky high.  Higher than it's been my whole cycle.  This gives me a lot of hope because my temps are usually on the low side.  The high temps don't necessarily mean I'm pregnant, but they do mean my progesterone is high and doing its job to sustain a pregnancy if something does decide to implant (or has already).  So I'm very happy with how my chart looks.

 

It's obvious that 6dpo was not an implant dip.  But it's possible my temp could dip tomorrow indicating possible implant - or more likely AF's impending arrival.

My gut just says this cycle wasn't successful and I'm not pregnant as much as I wish that weren't true.  The only symptoms I really have are fatigue and my boobs are very heavy and SORE.  The boob thing is very unusual for me.  They didn't even get this sore or heavy with Jackson during my entire pregnancy (made it to 31 weeks 2 days).  So that's giving me a little niggle of hope but that's pretty much it.

I did feel a few sharpish jabs this morning around 9am on my left ovary area and even now as I type that, I feel a little crampy/sore in that area.  

FMU tests (3 1/2 hour hold), Wondfo & FRER

 

Thought maybe I saw a super faint shadowy line but I usually do so I think it's just my "line eye".

SMU Wondfo test (5 hour hold)

 
 

Again I see that stupid shadowy line.  Ugh.  I'd almost rather it be stark white so that there's no ambiguity.

So there we have it.  9dpo.  According to the internet, this is the most common day for implantation and 13dpo is the most common day for a bfp according to FF, although that's probably old data from before we had all these super early detection HPT's.  Just based on my observations of the internet it seems 10-12 dpo is the most common.  So I'm not out of the game just yet but my hope is dwindling fast and I just don't feel pregnant.  I would be really shocked if I did get a bfp.

UPDATE:

Felt really tired tonight so I took a nap from about 9pm to 11pm.  When I woke up at 11pm I thought it was early AM....so I took my temp and it was 99.58 😳.  That's low grade fever territory.  Took a Wondfo and it was negative.....

 

Went back about 20 mins later and it had an evap....

 

So I dipped a FRER.....

 

Didn't see anything but thought maybe there was a shadowy line.  So I went back 20 or so mins later and yep a pink evap....

 

Inverted....

 

And enhanced....

 

So now I am thinking....wtf.  Could this be for real the start of something?  Why is my temp soooo high?  Oh oh oh and I also had 2 tiny pink spots on the tp and there was no irritation or rectal bleeding or anything. 

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