Cycle #6 ~ CD 3 *UTI*

 

Today has been pretty uneventful.  I got zero sleep last night.  Didn't get to sleep until about 11am this morning and slept until 4pm.  The AZO I'm taking for my UTI is helping with the painful cramps which I now suspect were due to the UTI because they stopped when I began taking that.  My flow is pretty heavy today.  I'm still having some burning when I pee and my pee is orange (side effect of the AZO).  But my urgency to go is better now and I feel like I'm able to get pee out easier.

I couldn't say if I had any side effects from the Clomid last night or not because I was in so much pain and preoccupied with the UTI and cramps that I didn't notice anything else.  I've had a stressful day for various reasons and I feel overwhelmed and when I get overwhelmed I shut down emotionally and just kind of hide within myself, blocking everything else out.

I took tonight's Clomid dose and that was about 30-45 mins ago and I don't feel anything so far.  I haaaaate having my period.  If I'm able to have two more babies - either back to back or as twins, I'm going to see about getting some birth control or something that will stop my periods because they're so heavy and so painful.  Once I no longer have a use for them, I want them gone honestly.

So I guess that's it.  I wish I could say I have a lot of optimism about this cycle but for whatever reason I don't.  Maybe that will change - I hope so.  But right now I just think omg am I going to have to go through another 6 months or longer before I'm pregnant again? Will I ever be?  Ugh.  Just in a funk today I guess.  Ready for AF to be over or at least slow down.  ☹️

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