Cycle #5 ~ 9 dpo *discouraged*

 

9 dpo - Temp 97.31 @ 4:30am (1.5 hr sleep) and was restless, itchy, mouth breathing and uncomfortable.  Temp 98.40 @ 5:45am (no sleep).  Have not peed since 2:30am, very minimal liquids, before FMU test @ 6:30am


Symptoms:  nausea last night and this morning, suuuper intense itching, cramping especially right ovary.  Last night (this morning) as I was laying down to sleep, I felt a distinct tap, almost like a big bubble popping, in my uterus on the left side and it startled me.  It felt exactly like implantation with Jackson only it wasn't several taps it was just one big one.  Really hoping that was little one burrowing in because I literally was in the middle of praying and asking it to, if it was there.  Boobs are sore, especially nipples.  Test lines looking the same so maybe I have a bad batch?  The cosmic joke the universe plays on me 🙄.  


This morning's FMU Wondfo and FRER...


 


My chart...


 


Jumped into bed and had a pain like abdominal soreness.  AF cramps continue.  Afternoon test @ 1:40pm I can barely even see the ghost line.  I'm an idiot.  Only slept for 1 1/2 hours.  Phone woke me up.  Feeling discouraged now.  Also queasiness has stepped up a notch.  I haven't even eaten or had an appetite today.  Gonna lay back down I think.  Further tests have all been bfn or have that same super faint maybe there line.  Story of my life.  Pretty sure I'm out.


Here's all the tests from today....


 


And the final one from tonight...

 

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