Cycle #5 ~ 3 dpo

 

One year ago today is when I found out I was pregnant with Jackson.  It was one of the happiest days of my life.  I had hoped that by the time this day rolled around, I would be pregnant again.  But alas...I am not.

So I'm 3 dpo today on cycle #5 and I'm not having much in the way of symptoms.  My temp did go back up today but not by much.  Still it's above what I assume the CL will be.

 

I put in my own crosshairs for now, until FF decides to give them to me for real.  I hope my body didn't trick me and NOT ovulate on cd 15, but instead on cd 17.  That would make me only 1 dpo.  I don't think that's the case because I typically O the day of or next day after positive opk/peak reading.  And since my pos opk and peak reading were very early in the AM on cd 15 I'm pretty certain that I did ovulate later than day.  But, like all things, time will tell and all I can do right now is to speculate.

DH was gonna try to get off early today but he's being audited at the moment so he can't.  No idea what we will have for dinner.  I'm bored.  Already did my cleaning "to do" list for today....

 

I'm just waiting on the floors to dry and then I can wipe down the sink and put away the mop.  Then I dunno what I'll do.  I don't want to take a nap because I stayed up until 3am last night and woke up just before 10am.  It's Friday night and we aren't doing anything special as usual.  Just gonna eat dinner at watch movies and go to sleep lol.  Sunday is Father's Day so tomorrow I'll take the girls to buy him a gift and card.  I'm going to give him a separate card from Jackson and me but I don't know what I'll say yet.  I so wish I was pregnant and could once again give him such a special Father's Day gift like I did last year.  I feel like such a failure as a wife and mother.  I hope I'll get the chance to redeem myself.

So yeah symptoms seem to be in line with typical AF symptoms for me:  slightly tender boobs off and on, craving chocolate (I don't normally crave chocolate specifically but I tend to crave sweets in general), skin breakout, headache, and have a burst of energy today.  My gut is telling me I'm not pregnant this cycle but I'm also trying to be really positive about it too.  I guess right now I'm somewhere in the middle.

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