Cycle #10 ~ CD 11
Well here we are in November. I’m very conflicted right now because I’m just to that point where I don’t know what else to do to get pregnant. I’ve done everything that’s within my power. Part of me wants to just throw my hands up and give up. I’m almost 40. DH is 47. My girls are 14 and 15. Maybe it’s just too late. I have to be okay with the possibility of not having a baby. And I’m so not okay with that, but I don’t know what else to do. As the holidays creep closer and the anniversary of Jackson’s birth/death nears, I just feel this heaviness, this weight that I can’t seem to shake and the closer it gets, the more anxious I feel. I don’t understand why this happened to me. I so badly want to just erase it and start again. I want my son. And that, I cannot have. At least not in this life. AF was four days long, fairly heavy. Then there was four days of spotting. I am not temping this cycle...